I’ve been really sick
But not the fun kind that includes sickie blogging (where I’m juuust out of it enough on cold medicine to be a whole other kind of funny). I’m finally done my damn anti-depressants after way more than a year. The reason I was on them so long is my shitty psychiatrist who knows less about my meds than I do. Finally I just said fuck it and stopped on my own. So now I’ve got what’s called discontinuation syndrome. It’s awful. Really, really bad. I’m dizzy, nauseated, constantly on the verge of vomiting, and my brain is doing this thing called brain shivers or brain zaps depending on who you talk to.
Basically what it feels like is when you’re on a rollercoaster and your stomach goes somewhere totally different than the rest of you, but with your brain. It also kinda feels like if you’ve ever hit your head wicked hard and can’t really get your equilibrium back. It’s really bad. I’ve spent the last several days sleeping and just wishing this will be done soon. I’ve heard about people that have discontinuation syndrome so bad for so long that they can never stop their meds, and others that have to open up the pill capsules and reduce the dose by one med flake every day.
In the mean time, I’ve got a hardcore flu kinda thing and get to miss school for the first time all semester. So, Weekly WTF will be late this week. Hopefully I’ll feel better soon. Gravol and Tylenol are doing nothing.
You cold turkey’d your meds? Oy.
I hope you feel better soon.
I didn’t. I actually did the correct taper method (I’ve been on these and come off them before) no thanks to my psych who failed to mention that since I started at a higher dose, even if I go painfully slowly, the final break will still be awful. Thanks for the good wishes. I feel a bit better today so hopefully I won’t be one of those people that has discontinuation syndrome for so long they have to start on the meds again.
Oh, good. Glad to hear that! I hope you can get over the discontinuation and not have to go on the meds again. You sound determined! Hang in there friend!!!
holy crap. no bueno. stopping cold turkey is baaaaaaad! i’ve done that before and was sick for two weeks, with all the exact symptoms you are experiencing – seriously, i think it was during that time that i LITERALLY had the worst headache of my life. gatorade helps a bit, to help flush your system and keep your electrolytes in balance and to stay hydrated.
so sorry hon. i’m as miserable with you, and you’re in my thoughts!
xo
Gatorade is an awesome idea Brie, thanks for that! I never would have thought. I don’t so much have a headache as everything hurts and the slightest bump hurts. Thanks for reading my blog even though I know you’re doing some serious recovering of your own. I’m thinking of you too and hope the healing goes fast!